梅雨时节紫阳开。

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Alexis and I got in this huge quarrel yesterday but I am not sure what exactly we were quarrelling for. Well, maybe I know. I havent seen SY for more than a month and he never asked me for his birthday gathering. When I was in Vivo and picking up a bday gift for him, the only two lines he said through the phone were:

"Hey, I jus went for dinner with Alexis." & "btw, who is your bf to be?"

So I ended up being a "fucking crazy bitch" who yelled at ppl for no reason. I was mad and I didnt control my anger that time when I called Alexis. But honestly, I never yelled. You cant expect ppl always hit ur expectation. I am tired of the routine that everytime before I said anything to you, I have to think twice.

Babe, sometimes you really make me exhausted.

And for what it worth, I dont have a bf to be. That was a harmless joke.

Speaking of which, I did recieve this ludicrous msg from dylan. After all the disappearing and ignoring shits, he jus showed up with a greeting like nothing ever happened. When I held my phone thinking about whether to reply him, I suddenly realize at this moment I dont even bother to tell him we were over. So I delete the msg I was gonna send: How dare you "babe" me again?

I spent my weekend with cc and yisi, never saw them after I started working. So I kept telling myself to treasure the time spent with them without being mad for all those tiny silly reason. Though cc was 10 mins late for our movie and wore a pair of slipper and yisi kept forgetting to give my watch back. After the harsh judgement I made over them the other night, I realized its a huge mistake. They could choose whatever kinda life to live with, If played around with girls did making them happy, I have absolutely no position to point my finger at them.

That is what families do, never judge. always support. I get too greedy sometimes, but I know I cant lock them in my backyard forever.

So everything is meaned to be simple, but people always complicate them. Happy or sad, black or white, face or hide, care or not. It is just NOT that complicated.

I am not happy. I never was. But life goes on, we all have to put up with it.

I need a moive to make my tear gland function again, not a movie like astro boy