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“May be you should stop believing in horoscopes”

Fresh start of Nov. This island is coming into rain season while Beijing is snowing.

I cant think straight recently. Its like every decision i made, i ended up regretting. So I guess the best way now is leave the options open and do not decide on anything.

People come and people leave, not only in company but also in life.

Yest i started my second drinking round in double o. I guess I wanted to meet her before I went, but after i left, i cant figure out why i went at the first place. Did I intend to prove anything? Or was I just curious. Alexis was drunk like hell and she told me those crazy stuff that i wasnt surprise to hear. I knew she didnt mean to say it.

All those sweet things were tellen to me by others, they had their purpose of saying that. Its not that hard to imagine when i would do the same thing.

Sometimes, we have to stop ourselves from doing something that we badly want to do It takes a real effort of mind over matter to leave something alone - but it makes perfect sense. By analogy, there is now something delicate in life that it would be far better to avoid and than to inflame.

Its easy to understand and easy to say, but hard to keep it.

I want to go looking for some people so badly recently. but everytime i found them, something went wrong. It went to the exactly opposite direction i was intending to lead. How can i possibly make thing right when I dont even know what i want.

Next week alex will be on leave for three days, guess i will be on my own in that insane company. I am not sure whether i will rmb this guy after yrs. Even it has been only two weeks, i thought like i know him for yrs already. I keep telling myself its dangerous to get too close with him. But i enjoy his accompany as a friend. I jus hope everything will stay the same and I will never mess up his life.

When i sense i have been being too close to someone, i will make myself back off. The harder thing for me than being waiting is being initiative. I havent heard from nana for quite a long time, I dont want to admit that frienship will fade due to long distant. But in the end, i guess we are all beaten by fate.

What if it is something we want deep inside our heart but we are yet to discover? I mean if we really want to make a difference we can surly do that rite? If our faith is strong, the how possibly can seven hours time difference tear us apart?

But i made my effort. I did everything i can possibly do to keep you in my life. I will still be here when you come back, but i maybe not the same person you knew, assume you have ever knew me.

Should we stop believing horoscope? But how can i stop that when it tolds me the following.

Bite your tongue. Bide your time.